Lets start a conversation in our communities about Gd, relationships and the Holy. 50 Days of Heaven a yearly exploration of spirit through art has begun. Join us if you can.



Tuesday, April 30, 2013

Day - what are we at 26, 27...

Dante's inferno starts something like this: In the middle of the road of my life I awoke as if in a dark wood where the true way was wholly lost.
Well here it is the middle - and these are not the gate of hell that I have found with the foreboding sign ***Abandon hope all ye who enter here ***

No instead today I have been confronted by a sea of possibilities. Really - literally - flooded!!!!
This guy at work (Mike S.) and I have had this odd conversation about possibility and intention and yes happiness as the result of attitude for the last 4 weeks - not taking life too seriously - letting go of guilt - setting goals but holding them loosely. Then a movie pop-ed up on Netflix from Sunday:
http://youtu.be/JcMQmuvzPmI
Reminding me of a double rainbow and this gift of the golden secret.
Why am I in this odd job while I appear to be simply waiting for my life to restart? Why doing the monotonous job of testing software for someone elses gain? Why sitting within this pit of anxiety - looking at the dark wood once again (Corporate America-abandon hope indeed)?
Why when faced with this does something seemingly random turn into this flood of possibility.

the way is not lost
the woods are not dark
this may be the middle and still there is so much more
I (we) need not abandon hope - grace is still here in the ridiculousness of feet and duckbilled platypus and taro roots and anything else that seems impossible and yet simply is - like love, forgiveness, joy, passion, hope, dreams, imagination, tomorrow, possibilities, random kindness, puppies, sun sets, bumble bees ... what ever you need to smile.



 

Monday, April 29, 2013

Day 25 - Prayer

Karen - Chattanooga

Prayer:
Filtered through life
the joy
the passion
the wonder
the knowing
I pray
Gd - love me
I am not proud that I pray this for myself. I am not proud that I pray so that I can love you, love life, love others, love the world, love love

It is hard sometimes this place that we are called to serve.

I pray with empty thoughts to hear
I pray with smooth intentions to act
I pray that always compassion
remind me not to blame on malice that which can be easily explained by ignorance.
I am ignorant too - speak Gd
I pray

Sunday, April 28, 2013

Day in between days - a cloud of witnesses

Karen - somewhere near Northbrook

It was an explosion of pent-up-ness. A perfect arc of lemon ice streaming not out the window but back into the car.
A spoon had gotten caught and a small shower of sticky goodness refused to be released into the wild of the expressway. In all honesty at 65 mph  probably headed for the tires and the car doors.

What possessed me to try to toss it out the window?

I was in that space of needing to let go of something and the half eaten Culvers Lemon Ice seemed a better choice than the map of my life I was trying to sort through. I opened the window to dump and just as the cup met the rim of the glass I noticed the spoon sticking beyond - still in the car.

Later that evening as we drove we found gooey stuff - everywhere.
Gravity and wind disbursement are amazing things. They carried what I thought I was getting rid of right back into the car. They carried everything back inside where they must be dealt with. With each little goopy glop I find I pray to remember. My life will not change unless I change it.
My choices will not go away unless I make different ones.
My desires, no matter how sincere will not live without guidance and initiation.

But if I continue to look a small cloud of witnesses (this one on the front windshield) may even show forth from the aftermath of a failed attempt to simply release without preparation. A reminder that Gd is still present watching and waiting and praying, perhaps, for me.

How long will I be reminded of this ill-conceived action -
little drops of gooey are found everyday my friends ...
... everyday.

Saturday, April 27, 2013

Day 23 - Burning away to burn brighter

Karen - Chattanooga

What is it in life that must be burned away.
Held so tightly to the ground that the only way to free up the earth for new growth is to scourge what is above.
When life burned away my hope I did not die -
I climbed to find the source - I sought out the what and why of my grief and loss.
Where did this flame start that cut so neatly into my well tended field of life.

Ah -
and what I found -
what sages have suggested from the start
The source of the flame was love.

Had love not found me the field would never have been planted
Had love not found me the flame would never have been able to reap its harvest
Had love not found me I would not have sought out the source of that flame
to look blinded by light into the face of love - of Gd and weep.

What will the field grow - new shoots come forth - some have already gone the way of the sickle.

Come love - I see your face more clearly now for having endured the flame
Come love - I know you are not the well ordered candles
Come love - I know you leap for life not joy or sorrow
Come love - be in y breast that I might live within you always.
 

Tuesday, April 23, 2013

Day 21 / 22 - Through the eyes of a child

Chicago - Betsy and her teacher - students

In Chicago on a Sunday morning during the school year. Betsy Peterson can be found teaching 9-12 year old children what she knows of Gd. In this faith a traditional ritual of communion is celebrated weekly as a promise - to love, to be with, to give grace.










What does love look like - a promise fulfilled, a gift of hope, the impossible, the sheerness of joy overflowing. All of these bespeak Gd.



And as is true for most good relationships, they teach her as well. 

"The most crazy making child did a big cross and at the center wrote the word hope. I could have wept for joy. He also did a candle - the Paschal candle I think, but wrote the word love."

God is Love - let heaven adore ... 

Sunday, April 21, 2013

Day 20 - Simple gifts

Sue Dunmore - Chicago

My sister is an amazing artist. After this weeks events - terrifying, numbing, aggravating, and surprise-less. At a vigil she remembered these words:
Tis a gift                        Tis a gift to be simple                               Tis a gift to be free
Yes my sister - what else can we be called to in this world than to remain free.

Saturday, April 20, 2013

Day 19 - What am I called to do

Karen - Lookout Mountain

It took a moment - my gut knew it first - still I did not stop or turn around, I drove on.

It was a good day. Beautiful sky. A cool breeze. I was wondering about this place with so much pollen that it collects as a fine dust of yellowing over everything even the pools of water after a hard rain. Parkery Parker in the back seat (our chewing machine - er - puppy), we were headed home up the mountain - a swervey curvy mess of a great ride. In my little Fiat I like to imagine myself part of an English spy film as I drive up at night.

But there in the middle of the road - you know already don't you - an animal. It could have been anything, it was brown, nondescript, long, mostly it was dead. I hate that, the sight and feel of seeing an animal killed by a car. I heard once that animals dieing this way is a clear sign that we humans had taken up too much of the planet.

I drove on. ... What should I do???
I drove on. ... What could I, me only me, do???
I drove on. ... What about the traffic if I went back???I drove on. ... What would I do with the body - this little life that was someones pet?
I drove on. ... What should I do about telling - someone - about this death?
I drove on. ... What if the person doesn't know and worries - unsure forever what had happened?
I drove on. ... What if I can't do it, what if I can't pick up ...
I drove on. ... What would I want if it was my pet???
I drove on. ... and then I turned around.

A reusable grocery bag from trade show in hand I did the only thing I would want from someone else
that saw Roxanne, or Max, or Dylan, or Bogart, or Icke, or Leo, or Grey Max, or Ruppert, or Simon, or Edju, or Kitten, or Suki, or Pie, or little Parkery Parker to do - I went back down the mountain and picked her up. Walking back to the car I waved down someone passing into a nearby drive way and asked - Did they own a cat? Yes. One had been killed - did they...? No.

So it was mine to lay this body down. I went into the woods (this is a mountain after all) and covered her as best possible. I said goodbye with a tear (odd really this life was not mine to mourn) and a prayer. It felt impossible really to know what should be done, but there was nothing else to do.

So I went back to the car and Parkery Parker.
I drove on. ...

Friday, April 19, 2013

Day 17 & 18 - Turn the page

Karen - Chattanooga, TN

The new page - the turned corner - the unexpected surprise.

What is scarier than a blank slate.
Into a desert.
The landscape looks barren.
The sun hot
The wind relentless

Still between the sand dunes
I wonder what could be found.
Any dreams, any fear, any odd and absent thoughts can be found in the grainy mess of too much sweat and too little shade. My soul.

When I left
When I was left
I abandoned hope and began instead to rely on faith
I let go of any trifle and sought instead the hard core of who I am, who I will be with Gd... alone.

To serve

To serve this world

To serve Gd

The blank page
Paint on me - creator
Draw your impossible amazing isness
Remind me of your love in my bones
Sing to me in that soft raucous nature of truth

I will no longer be held within a box of who others think Gd is or how we serve the world the best.
I will be what I am called to be by embracing who I am.
A blank page - terrifying with its potential.

Thursday, April 18, 2013

Day 16 - What the bush reveals

Chattanooga - Karen Mooney & Pam Rumancik

Today starts the next part of this journey, I move from - What do I believe to  - Who do I serve.

Service - such a dicey thing.
I always remember this story from my grandfather. Traveling/working in the late 1940's he moved around the world collecting game birds for release here in the US. When working in India he found himself enraged by the sight of modern tractors tilling the land. As the sun shone through one hundred years of top soil he could only shake his head. The farmer and workers standing next to him were simply stunned into silence. The Peace Corp was helping to modernize India, to bring them into a place where they could feed their population. They were bringing what everyone wants - progress. They were bringing what we believe everyone wants - right?

I have learned that sometimes I "serve" others to feel better about the choices I have made for myself.
Sometimes my service is not desired or is not what is needed. Often I do not think to stop and ask that simple question - what would help?
Sometimes I serve to get away from my own fear of standing still within the ambiguity of my life.

Who do I serve?
Who do I wish to serve?

Like this bush cut in half to get it out of the way of cars picking up cheep fast food I wonder what I will find inside the reality of serving.
What am I called to that will be cut back to allow shameless consumption?
What am I called to that will be revealed only when the obnoxious occurs?

Wednesday, April 17, 2013

Day 15 - the first step to service may be in silence.


Corey Palmer - Chicago : The Ortha nan Gaidheal
The first step may be to clear my mind - of those things that distract, raw and judge. To be able to serve not to full fill what I want or need but to find and do what is needed by others.
 
I weave a silence onto my lips.
I weave a silence into my mind.
I weave a silence within my heart.
I close my ears to distractions.
I close my eyes to attractions.
I close my heart to temptations.

Calm me, O Lord, as you stilled the storm.
Still me, O Lord, keep me from harm.
Let all tumult within me cease.
Enfold me, Lord, in your peace.

--The Ortha nan Gaidheal
 

Tuesday, April 16, 2013

Day 14 - Aubrey Scheffey: I should go on more walks

Chicago - Aubrey Scheffey
I should go on more walks. Not for the fist-pumping virtuous reasons I usually think of regarding Regular Exercise, but because today I saw a bluebell growing amid the trash of a railway. And because I had a ways yet to go and nothing else to bother me, I got to thinking about that bluebell and what it means regarding the world we live in.

Does the bluebell grow from pride? Does it select a trashy heap for a stark contrast, better showcasing its delicate nape and unusual color? Certainly not. Bluebells fall like rain, indescriminate but nevertheless well-crafted.

Why is there evil in the world? Why did God harden Pharoah’s heart when Moses asked for his people to be freed? Why would a diety incarnate only to let himself be slaughtered? These questions always tickle and trip along my mind, even if all I am doing is trying to admire the landscape.

A recent verse has caught in my throat, the hard-pill casing refusing to relent and be swallowed. If you love those who love you, what credit is that to you? It is easy to love those who are loveable. It is easy to admire a bluebell, a first hint of spring in a grubby world. More bluebells would really improve that curb, make it easy on the eyes and pleasant for other walkers. Let us carpet the land in bluebells.

I love bluebells, but they do not challenge me. They ask only to be admired and pollinated. It was not the pretty violet color that rattled my brain, but the trash. The empty cartons of high fructose corn syrup and GMO-riddled Monsanto food stuffs. The cheap, crushed cans and sneaky broken beer bottles. This was no place for a flower to bloom.

Often I prefer to think on the God with hen’s wings who cradles me near her and sighs along my skin. I like the God who makes bluebells blue and brains complicated, who plays with creation and strings music through the heavens. But this is an easy God to love.

Nestled beneath her wings, I watch as my God fails to jam the gun brought to a kindergarten class. I watch Her trace the curve of apathetic shoulders when rapists are painted as Rockwellian youth tempted by drunken sluts. She stares me right in the eye and hardens Pharoah’s heart so that the Jews will remain slaves until Egyptian children are massacred.

Perhaps the bluebell grows for the pleasure of the trash. It brings fragrance and beauty to a ditch of forgotten refuse and discarded indulgences. It nods a hopeful nod and then dessicates and dies. I do not understand my God. I do not understand why bluebells and trash are thrust together in clamor and confusion. I do not understand, but I am grateful for the challenge and for a God larger than my own limited love.

Monday, April 15, 2013

Day 13 - To be with another

Karen Mooney - Floyd's

My friend went to the doctor for a routine visit - oh there's a little something off - maybe we should take a look - onto ... let's get another opinion.

A referral is made
Recommendation are heard
Surgery happens
Community gathers
Healing begins
Results come in
Fear sits us down
Plans are accepted
Treatments commence
 
My way of accepting her amazing gift of courage and panache
My way of staying connected with my dear dear friend
My way of saying I believe your will beat this
My way of showing - I my belief that she will not go somewhere that I can not go - and she will not go alone

Was to cut off my hair.

I believe that we give faith to one another.
I believe that our actions matter
I believe that my friend will beat this thing called cancer.

 

Sunday, April 14, 2013

Day 12 - Rise rise

Karen and Pam - Church of Our Saviour : Chicago

I believe in Gd.
 
I have known this faith from the time I was very young. I have been comforted and confronted by this belief for almost as long. I believe in Gd and struggle still with how to relate the Gd I know to this world that I live within.

I believe that Gd is love and that Gd loves me (as corny as that looks).
I believe that everything is worthy of the love of Gd. I am not special in this. Nothing that I do causes Gd to love me. There is nothing that I can do to turn that love away from me.

I can turn away from the love of Gd but Gd does not have the same option.

If I act against myself, against my community, against this earth and her creatures. If I act in ways that make me separate - well - I can be separate and walk away from this love of Gd - and still Gd's love is there. Even when I shut down and do not embrace that love - still it is there.

Now the green blade riseth from the buried grain. ... ... ...
Rising is coming alive to this truth. Even in my darkest hour Gd loves me. Even when I smell and my teeth are not brushed and I have forgotten to call my aging parents and the dishes remain undone and I remember the times I have hurt others with my tongue and sharpness Gd loves me. Even when I am good and passionate and giving Gd loves me. Even when I do not remember to be thankful Gd loves me. Even if I was the worst I can or could ever be Gd loves me.


Rising is living within this truth of being alive. Gd's love is not a parlor game to tell me if I am doing the right or wrong thing. Gd's love is simply the affirmation of every connection I have ever made.

Rising is coming alive in a away that affirms that Gd does not and never will turn away no matter how many times I trip and loose sight of that love. Come alive, come alive the wise sage Howard Thurman reminds me - rise up and come alive the world needs your life as surely as the grass needs to grow toward the sun. Come alive come alive come alive and live into a love that simply is there.

Thursday, April 11, 2013

Day 9, 10, 11 - stretching beyond normal

- anywhere not home

Being away from home. 
Being awaken by rain against a window to close
Being aware of your mess
Being unsure
Being with friends
Being in a place of wonder and passion
Being home sick and at home
Being aware of maps changing
Being lost in a place I thought I knew
Being asleep in a foreign bed
Being alive
I miss knowing what I will do in the evenings
I miss the beauty of our back / front yard
I miss the thought of having my love next to me
I miss the snuggle and smell of puppy breath

Day 8 - separation


Western ave stretches through all of Chicago, at least all the Chicago I know. It exists there as a line, of possibility, of promise. It is a place where dreams come and go.

Just north of Lawrence in one block there is a dentist, a bank, a McD's (where the homeless are allowed to rest from the weather and constancy of walking), a soccer supply store, a Thai restaurant,
a Walgreens, a fancy dress shop, a Mexican restaurant, a bird emporium, a furniture store and a tire shop - that is one block of a street that stretches for about 30 miles north and south. From stem to stern of this great city.

I can look down that road and wonder for hours who   What   When    Why. 

The dreams are there both those fulfilled and those dashed but they each sparkle with life.

Here call is simply limited by my lack of imagination. Someone once thought with joy and a bit of panach "Yes that is exactly what I can do, I can make young girls dreams of beauty come true. I can sell them THE dress to capture that moment when youth meets maturity." They thought "Well why not a bird store in this neighborhood someone needs to sell to us lovers of song." They wondered "Well if I want to work from home and I am a dentist, I suppose I can see people on my first floor - then the kids can play in the back yard and I won't have such a long commute."

Imagine that someone is selling dresses, bird seed, health and fulfilling dreams. 

Call - listen - have faith - believe.

Sunday, April 7, 2013

Call or Fall  -  by Pam Rumancik
It's gravity
the call to follow;
no loud sirens,
flashing lights,
or disembodied voices.
Not even a burning bush.
Just a steady pull that doesn't care
if I run down,
crawl slowly
or tumble head over heels.
I'm gonna go.
I have to go.
Can't see the end
but do know
knowing beyond words,
it will be ok.
I don't have to leap, or dance, or fly,
I only have to fall.  

Saturday, April 6, 2013

Day 6 - Extrodinary vision

Karen Mooney - Chattanooga
 
A powerful vision

just opening my eyes

and looking.

to see

- the world, this earth, the galaxy, the universe

- so vast.



My vision

How can I not to feel called

to be more aware.


Called to care.




Even as I struggle
How
How
How

do I live in this world now in relationship with the not simply using the earth ...
 
 

Friday, April 5, 2013

Day 5 - Signs and symbols

Karen - Chattanooga TN
Mitzpa Reform Congregation

On a beautiful spring Friday evening we make our way into the synagogue for Shabbat. Greeted by this sign (ha) what about that burning bush? I say to Pam - thinking I am sly and clever. Sly and clever is that what I bring to the table of G-d's house? (Maybe - Balaam's ass might point to G-d being sly and clever as well...)

We are as guests of a gracious host Rabbi Bill Tepper. There is a lot I can learn from this kind and generous soul about celebration, thoughtfulness and hospitality. We walk in to the temple and are greeted by a welcoming freshness. White walls envelop the space and windows lined with clear glass let through the evening light. Art depicting some of the holidays celebrated in this place of G-d. The tabernacle fronted by gold symbols of faith.

This is not the feeling of being wrapped in worn wood and stone, the gothic stained glass coloring all the light that shines through - instead here are windows that are a reminder to me that the light itself is a gift.

(Sly and clever say my inner voice.) This place, these windows grasp not at antiquity but at the beautiful almost playful nature of G-d; somehow a reminder that G-d dances with us. Calls to us in humor and light and possibility and beauty and life, yes life. Broken but beautiful life.

Call - my call in this place - be sly, be clever, be happy, be filled, be whatever and wherever you are in this moment. Open Karen to the wonder; that is open my heart to the wonder that might be.

A description captures my wonder at the feeling of this space: Erin Yon spent many hours studying the principles of Judaism before the theme for the windows began to crystallize in her mind: since Judaism is meant to teach us how to bring God into our world, how to take the ordinary and make it holy, Erin tried to lift the windows, to open them to God’s presence.  She came to understand that Jews honor the world because in doing so, they are honoring God’s creation.
http://www.mizpahcongregation.org/aboutus/history/art_glass_windows/

Don't I wish for exactly this every moment~
to be reminded of the call to live the one precious life that it is mine, to take the ordinary and make it holy, to bring the presence of G-d into my world? 

Thursday, April 4, 2013

Day 4 - Called to walk with not for

Karen - Chattanooga TN

I expect,
                                        so much
Have become accustomed to,
                                        so much

I act,
I pray,
I believe,
                                        too little





If offered possibility
                                        why do I look
                                        for an
                                        umbrella.

As if the rain is a bother
    not a reminder of change and growth.

Today I act as if the real promise is

I will take on the world WITH you

not for....  got it Gd - call.

 

Wednesday, April 3, 2013

A rev that knows what to put where - Katie Norris

From Rev. Katie Norris
Cleveland OH

Today in the Journaling for Mental Illness class I led, we did a watercolor and glue meditative art practice to get ready to journal. Here is one if those pieces. In response to the What do I believe? question, I believe art is part if recovery from mental illness and we as a community need to help create artistic opportunities for each other in a supportive environment. That is what my ministry is for at
www.farrellfoundation.com


Katie reminds me that we do what is front us first. The Rev. left seminary to care for her mother. She probably thought a lot about it before she went but she taught me something about putting what is first, first in that moment. Family, love, care, compassion, comfort, concern, service - Katie is always looking for a way to reach out to her world, not just tomorrow but today. The Rev. looks for how she can make a difference and because of that she does.

Thanks Katie for reminding me to look and see what is here now. For being present to people who need you and art and solid ground.

Thanks for being an inspiration and a reminder.

Tuesday, April 2, 2013

Day 2 - Parker as inspiration

April 2, 2013
Chattanooga TN

Sometimes it takes a couple of days to learn that it is possible to move.
Sometimes it takes courage
Sometimes encouragement
Sometime it just takes desire

Call is believing in your self - and the power of gravity!

Go Parker Go - trouble in the making
(What you don't see is the gate that went up about 30 min later as this new trick made possible the wider "wanderings" of a new being. Parker is a Unitarian Universalist after all - that would be a seeker.

Monday, April 1, 2013

Believe Do You What?

April 1, 2013 - University of Tennessee at Chattanooga. 

The first day of this journey and Pam and I found ourselves once again with dusty hands and knees as we tried to express this years question. Our newest member of the family Parker on leash we began to draw.
 
This year has brought with it many life changes:
It started with my letting go of a call to ministry in a sacramental tradition.
I found a desert rich with possibility.
My beautiful partner Ordained
       she began her call as a minister.
We left Chicago.
I found myself back in my faith -
      where the table is the place
      of being and becoming -
      a sacrament
I returned to Corporate America
      for a brief moment.



Call?
Does life burn??
Or does life burn in us? 

How do we listen. hear, interpret, act, believe, respond, commit?
A call from the ground of being should be different than an annoying cell phone.Still from my experience it can feel as arbitrary.

This year call has become the way that I understand life.

Easter Sunday – Renewal & Reclamation


Easter Sunday – Renewal & Reclamation                                Rev Pam Rumancik         March 31, 2013

In churches all across the country this morning folks are celebrating the Christian holy day of Easter.  Triumphal music is being played and Alleluia’s are being sung. “He is Risen” is proclaimed with jubilation and rejoicing.  Death has been conquered and believers will have life everlasting – or so the story goes.

It is a good story – one that’s been told for a couple thousand years and one which still has great appeal. Victory over death. Something firm to hold onto in a world which seems to be constantly changing . The promise of a world of justice, of happiness, of freedom from any kind of want – waiting just on the other side of death. That would be something to be excited about. If you just place your faith in the story of the cross, you will be rewarded with the joys of heaven in the afterlife.

But here in our Unitarian Universalist churches we don’t share that triumphalism – at least not in the same way. Easter is a day to celebrate rebirth, renewal, the cycles of life beginning again with the freshness of life new born.  It is joyful, it is grateful, it is even a little sticky sweet – notice we do have eggs hiding all around the sanctuary – but triumphant seems a little over the top.

It’s odd because for me, and I suspect for some others, it almost feels like there’s something missing.

I know a couple of lifelong UU’s who have taken one or more forays into mainline Christian churches for at least a while for that very reason – seeking that mysterious missing element. They had a sense that Christians had something solid to hold onto – while Unitarian Universalism is a faith of ambiguity and relationality.

It’s true - Unitarian Universalists live within a world that is complex with many shades of not only grey, but blue, magenta, chartreuse & gold. We generally agree that there are few to no “one size fits all” answers – that life is not black and white, no matter how convenient that would be.

We celebrate the diversity of human experience and accept that a multiplicity of perspectives enriches our experience and makes our own lives deeper and richer. Life is a multi textured and multi dimensional experience; one that we embrace when we are grounded and feel solid in our lives.

But all that complexity can also leave you feeling a little lost.

It’s like sailing out in a wide ocean, beautiful sun sparkling off the rising waves, fresh sea air, amazing seascapes and discoveries in every direction. Full of wonder and awe – that is until a storm hits.

The storm can be anything; the loss of a job, the death of a partner, a difficult health challenge – but suddenly that beautiful ocean of possibilities becomes a raging sea – where it seems there is little to hold on to and not much in the way of guidance.

It’s no wonder that one of the symbols embraced by contemporary Christian churches is the lighthouse.  “Come here” they say “find safe harbor in the storm of life. Come here and get out of that dangerous and unpredictable sea” and many, many people take them up on it.

I think of a woman named Helen. As a young woman she suffered two miscarriages, the birth of a still born daughter and the death of a two year old son in the space of about 6 years.  She only had one child survive to adulthood.

The death of the two year old little boy was the storm that swamped her. She was lost and adrift until found by some women from the local southern Baptist church. They surrounded her with love, gave her hope that she’d meet her lost children again in heaven, and offered a community which supported her in the depth of her pain.

She found love, a life boat in the storm of her life and no matter what crazy things they might say the bible says, she believes it, because it comes from a place which plucked her from the storm and gave her safe haven and security.

I know that in this church we have many stories of people going in the opposite direction. Folks who have fled churches which offered safety and security but denied their ability to think and reason for themselves; which traded freedom for security, which asked them to leave their intellect and curiosity at the door.  These traditions claim to offer a safe harbor but actually seem to be offering a tiny pond in lieu of the glory of the ocean.

And the ocean calls; sailing out into the ocean of possibilities is exhilarating – you never know what next you might find or discover. There is freedom and adventure and gusto.

But does this mean metaphor mean we are only a fair weather faith? Is it only good when the skies are clear and the waters calm?

This is a criticism of Unitarian Universalists. That we only appeal to people who are already having a good experience of life – that we have nothing to offer to those navigating stormy seas; who are struggling with poverty or addiction, loss or suffering.

I don’t believe that’s true – and for two very different reasons.

I do believe that Unitarian Universalism offers a solid lifeboat in troubled waters – like many other faiths out there it offers the safe haven of community. It is the relationships in our churches – within and around us – which can be our saving grace. It’s the folks who remember to call when we’ve dropped away – who keep calling when life is getting really difficult.

I was just talking with a member the other day whose husband is in hospice; she’s been his sole care giver for quite some time. During our visit I asked what sustained her.  What was keeping her afloat during this difficult time?  She mentioned the names of several church members who have been up to visit or who have continued calling. She named two who still ask her to go to lunch or a movie with them even though she hasn’t said yes yet.

It made my heart happy – to hear that she wasn’t forgotten and I strongly encouraged her to say yes next time they called.  The fact that they continue to call helps her feel loved and connected – even though she can’t make it into church right now.

Unitarian Universalist churches do provide community – but it’s really important to note that it is not an automatic event. Like just about any endeavor – you get out of it what you put into it. Community is a living, changing & evolving entity and if you do not invest in that community with your time and presence and energy – you will not enjoy its fruits when you need support.

This is one of the huge drawbacks of the unchurched who name themselves spiritual but not religious.  They may have wonderful and amazing spiritual lives when times are good – when the sun is shining. But when storm clouds threaten there may be no one to turn to for help and sustenance.

The blessing of Unitarian Universalism is that you have the freedom of search, the independence from dogma and creed, but you also have a sustaining community in times of trouble. When the ocean kicks up a storm there is a boatload of folks to pick you up and give you rest.

This is an obvious saving grace of Unitarian Universalism, but as I said, it is not exclusive to our faith. Most other faith communities offer this same gift of community – as long as you are willing to conform to the creed or set of beliefs they hold.

There is however another way that Unitarian Universalism provides guidance and support in the rough patches of life. Our six sources of inspiration, listed in the front of your hymnal, provide a wide variety of human wisdom, gathered through the centuries.  Our sources are:

§  Direct experience of that transcending mystery and wonder

§  Words and deeds of prophetic women and men

§  Wisdom from the world’s religions

§  Jewish and Christian teachings

§  Humanist teachings

§  Spiritual teachings of Earth-centered traditions which instruct us to live in harmony with the rhythms of nature.

These sources are not creedal tests. They don’t tell us what to believe or offer promises of a certain tomorrow if we follow their rules. They do help us gain a sense of the larger questions of life – and how humans have been struggling with and answering those questions for a very long time.

They help us widen our lens from the details of supernatural and fantastical stories and reclaim the deep messages behind them. They help us find the gold within the ore, the meta story which nourishes and sustains.

For example is our Easter story today. A story of triumph over death – of a God who redeems sinners through the death of God’s son.

On the surface there is much to object to – at least for me.

-          A God that is appeased by suffering and death
-          A God that creates people to be fallible and then punishes them for being so
-          A God that only saves the elect few who believe correctly
These were the very issues which moved me out of traditional Christianity and into Unitarian Universalism -  even as I felt a deep connection with the teachings of the Jewish Rabbi Jesus who taught about the power of love. For me a God which acts outside the rules of this reality is much less believable and impressive than a unifying ground of love from which all reality arises and returns.
Any yet – there is deep wisdom to be found in the story of the resurrection. The meta story of having to die to things which we believe are true in order to find a life that is fuller and richer than we yet imagined speaks to both my experience and my understanding of life.

How many times have I had to painfully release some false self image in order to claim a more life affirming one?

One example from the last few years comes to mind. All my life I’ve prided myself on my physical strength for my size and gender. As a young woman I could load and stack 50 bales of hay on the back of a pickup truck. As I got older I could work as long and hard as my husband, no matter what work we were doing on the house, and then go care for the kids and get them to bed.  More recently I worked just as hard as any of my male coworkers at Home Depot – loading rolls of carpet and toting cases of ceramic tile.  For my size – I felt mighty.

But I got sick a few years back and while I tried to figure out what was going on I lost a lot of my physical strength. I had to learn to conserve my energy – to rest often, to not be the one working the longest or the hardest.  I could no longer claim my identity as a physically strong woman.  Who was I?

This was actually really painful and difficult. I spent a lot of time feeling like a failure, like I was not enough, because I could no longer fit that one definition of self.

When I finally let go of that identity, I felt tremendous relief. By redefining who I was in the world – no longer a physical identity but an intellectual and spiritual one-  I discovered an emotional and spiritual strength that I hadn’t known was there.  I uncovered an identity which helped me grow into the fullness of my ministry in ways I had not previously imagined.

This is incredibly helpful – especially now – because I realize that my physical being will continue to change, will continue to decline as I grow older and this new definition of self will make it much easier to go with the flow of life.

What things have you let go of in order to become more? What parts of your psyche have had to be released or shed in order to grow into a fuller sense of you?

This for me is the reclamation of the story of Easter. It may not be true as I once believed it to be true – but it is again true as a deep and abiding story which can guide my life and widen my soul.

How many stories are there that you can reclaim? That you can look at with a different lens and find nourishment and sustaining grace?

Unitarian Universalism offers us this wonderful and amazing gift. It allows us to step out of one understanding of the world and into another through our relationships, through our conversations, through our dialogues and even through our misunderstandings if we just stay at the table. The crux of Unitarian Universalism is our covenant to love alike even when we don’t think alike – to stay in open conversation and relationship even when we have profound differences. This orientation opens up oceans of discovery we would never find on our own – or if we were stuck in some seeming safe harbor.

Today we celebrate Easter Sunday – not as a victory over physical death because none of us can possibly know what happens after we die. Today we celebrate Easter as a guiding path to living a rich and nourishing life of rebirth, renewal, and reclamation.

Like the seed which falls to the ground and dies in order to sprout new life, we have to break out of our own stuck places and set off for new horizons.

As Unitarian Universalists, we invite all who would journey to join us; we have a vessel big enough for all who yearn to sail.

Sounds like a wonderful thing to celebrate with joyful acclamation – Amen & Alleluia!

Call? : 2013 Art as spiritual discernment - 50 Days of Heaven

Salvation secured, yeah universalism, what is the call of my life within this world?

Do you have a call? Does a community? Does the earth?

Yearly I challenge myself, and others, to reflect in creative ways on a religious question during Eastertide (the 50 days after Easter). This year the question that looms forth from my life - What is my call? In the words of the Rev. David Bumbaugh:
          What do I believe?
          Whom do I serve?
          To whom or to what am I responsible?

It would be great to hear from all of you as well!!!! I am a firm believer that together we can do more than any one of us on our own. If you would like to join me in this quest - just send me your own creations/answers during Eastertide (April 1 - May 19). I will post them along with my own responses.
     Remember that you are not limited to any particular medium
     - write / draw / sing / dance / spray paint / collage / snap a photo
     - do anything that makes your heart full and alive with the possibility of potential!

Our creations and a list of locations (if appropriate) will go up on
facebook and a blogspot page for others around the city to enjoy & ponder.
Check out the last two years on Facebook as well:
     https://www.facebook.com/pages/50-Days-of-Heaven-a-public-art-project/177177748996086

For me this is a spiritual practice centered on engaging myself, the world and religion through art. The specificity of this attention allows me to deepen my understanding of my relationship with Gd, with the world, with others, with myself. (Not necessarily in that order.) Frankly, looking for answers ensures that I will wrestle with this question. I am not looking for a specific answer but I know that through intentionality I will find possibilities.

And maybe, just maybe, I will be transformed. At least that is my silent prayer as anything that pulls me deeper into my relationships is a blessing.

Peace and all good things from the bounty of faith -
Karen